When you child`s life flashes before you.

This morning I woke up super early and made bentos for both Daisuke and Joey. (Felt like a super Mum and wife!) Joey went to daycare and I went off to teach at a local kindergarden. I decided to put Joey in for 6 whole hours rather than going to pick him up between classes as I kind of wanted some "me" time. I arranged to have lunch with my friend Sue and I was round at her place when I got an e-mail from my SIL asking me if Joey was ok because she had seen on the news that a madman with a knife had entered a daycare place down the road from our apartment. I feel sick just typing that sentence and you can imagine how stunned and worried I was when I read the news because I didn`t know if it was Joeys`s daycare or not. I felt like I was going to cry/ throw up and had goose bumps because all I could think was "What if it was Joey`s daycare place!?" Sue remained calm and said that the chances were that the teachers would have called me if anything had happened but I couldn`t help but think "what if the teachers have all been injured and no-one can call!?!" There were no specifics in my SIL`s e-mail so I went into panic mode. I somehow managed to call J`s daycare place and was very relieved when the teacher picked up. I was babbling at her and I couldn`t for the life of my remember the words for "scary man with knife." Thankfully it wasn`t Joey`s place but it was the place I had originally planned on sending him which is about 5 minutes walk from our apartment. Apparently someone who lives near to the daycare place had become increasingly annoyed/ upset by the amount of noise the children made and decided to "do something about it." Thankfully no-one was hurt but it definitely made me hug Joey a littler tighter than usual when I picked him up as I realised that no matter how much I try and keep him close and safe, there are so many unknowns in the world. You never know what is going to happen. On a less thoughtful tangent, I went and joined the gym today. I officially become a member tomorrow but probably won`t go after the weekend because I have realised that I need to invest in some gym clothes and trainers!! On the bright side, I have a swimming costume and cap and sports bra all set to go! Wish me luck! I really want to lose about 10 kgs as I am sick of feeling frumpy and podgy!