My brain has turned to mush....

I have a very important decision to make and make official in the next couple of weeks and as my personal deadline grows closer, I am finding it harder and harder to make said decision. In fact, in the past few weeks, I am finding it ridiculously hard to be decisive from one minute to the next. A classic example is dinner. Every morning I usually decide what we are going to have for dinner that day and pick up any ingredients I need in the course of the day. Over the past couple of weeks I somehow manage to change my end an average of THREE times as to what we are having for dinner. Some people recommend menu planning to solve this problem but I usually have a vague menu plan in my head at the beginning of every week and end up changing things around/ changing the dish completely at various points depending on what I feel like eating. The past fortnight has been ridiculous though. Yesterday was a good example, my MIL came yesterday so in the morning I was planning to have yakisoba for dinner, very simple. At lunchtime I changed my mind to doing a chinese style dinner and we had mabo dofu, asparagus and bacon and some beef thing that I picked up at the supermarket. I also made egg drop soup. It was alot more work than yakisoba but everything turned out well in the end. Yesterday was a good day as I only changed my mind once!!! We had a lazy weekend and I ended up having a super long nap on saturday afternoon (instead of going to the gym like I had originally planned, bad Midori..) I haven`t been sleeping very well latey, largely because Joey has been really restless so disturbs my sleep constantly. I am not really sure what to do about our current sleep issues but if things don`t work themselves out, I think direct action will be in order! I also have a really bad crick in my neck this morning from sleeping badly thanks to Joey`s new propensity to sleep rammed under my armpit/ on my arm!! I had a bit of a fit yesterday because my MIL gave Joey candy without asking me if it was ok. I tend to find that rather than the actual act of giving him something forbidden without checking with me first, the thing that bugs me most is that I don`t think she would dream of giving my niece something to eat without asking my SIL`s permission first. I hate that she doesn`t have the same boundaries with me that she has with my SIL and thinks she can do whatever she wants to with my son but wouldn`t behave the same way with my niece. That said, I was pissed off that she gave him hard candy. Funny how you react to things when your MIL is involved though isn`t it? A couple of weeks ago a kind friend was looking after Joey while I had my hair done. Her son just turned 4 and while the boys were playing together, he asked for a lollipop. My friend was pretty sure that J had never had one and that I didn`t give him stuff like that but as a Mum of three, she also knew that if her son was having one, Joey would want one too. She gave him one and sat with him while he ate it and told me about it afterwards. When she told me afterwards I was like "fair enough, I bet he LOVED that." If my MIL had done the same thing and I had caught her, I would have gone ballistic!! I guess it is more a question of respect. I knew my friend gave Joey the lollipop while considering my feelings as a mother, I know my MIL gives Joey candy without a second thought for what I might think. It was the same thing when she gave him mikan before he was even eating solids. BUT like I said, I could probably handle the lack of boundaries/respect if she behaved the same with my SIL but as she seems to "ki wo tsukau" (worry about what my SIL thinks) where she is concerned, it leaves me feeling like I don`t have as much respect as SIL does. When I talk to D about how I feel, his comment is that SIL is Japanese and her family are nearby and it wouldn`t be good for my SIL to go complaining to her parents about my MIL so MIL is on her best behaviour where SIL is concerned however, with me, my parents are far away so it doesn`t matter as much. IF this is really what my MIL is thinking, I would be even more pissed off about it all than I already am. As it is, I think it is just that I am more easygoing than SIL and so MIL feels more comfortable around me. I don`t want her to be but she is!! Joey will be 2 in just over a month and he is growing and changing every day. I am starting to make plans for his birthday party so I might be seeking inspiration in the near future!!!