Everything is going well. I LOVE my job so far. The office is small but right slap bang in the middle of everything so I get all excited when I go out during my lunch break. I love my boss as much as I thought I would (especially as he gave me a day off on friday, despite it being my first week because I had a friend visiting from Japan!) and the other people in the office look like they are going to be fun to work with as well.Despite interviewing and being told I was accepting a PA job, I was actually given the job title "Marketing Executive" and was told by the Chairman that most of my work won't actually be PA support stuff at all (apart from translation/interpreting) and that they are planning on moulding me so that I can head up the Marketing department when they are fully up and running. It is all very exciting because it is exactly the kind of work I have always wanted to get into but never had the confidence to try. It is also cool that whatever I do and don't do can have an effect on the company's success/ growth even at this early stage because it has really given me the inspiration to work hard because I know it will make a difference! There will be a very steep learning curve on the job because there is so much I don't know about the business/ what they are trying to do but after spending two days reading a pile of papers my boss left for me while he was away last week, I am feeling more confident and like I am really going to be able to make a success of this whole thing. As I keep saying, it is either going to be a huge success or a terrible failure but either way, the experience I will gain will be invaluable and I really feel like I have fallen on my feet this time. Joey isn't adjusting to daycare as smoothly as I would like in that he cries every morning as we are leaving the house and when I drop him off. However, his teachers say that he is usually fine once I have gone and plays happily/ participates in the activities. He has been a bit funny in the evenings though, I thought he would cling to me but he has taken to rejecting me and clinging to my Mum. That makes me kind of sad but at the same time, at least he feels safe and secure here so I am not going to worry too much as he seems to be handling all the changes pretty well in his own little way. His english is coming at an amazing rate and I am going to have to start thinking of ways to maintain his Japanese, however, my boss wants us to come and hang out with his wife and kids at some point so if that goes well, he will have Japanese friends and he won't lose it completely. I am suffering alot of "Mummy guilt" because I feel like I am doing something completely selfish by going out and working but at the same time, I feel he gets more quality time with me because I get another outlet wherea in Japan I felt like I was in a total miserable rut and I think that transferred into how I related to him. I might feel guilty about all this but I do feel like I am a better mother now that I am doing what I have always wanted to do and once he settles, I am sure Joey will love daycare as much as he loved it in Japan. It will just take time. I have been having fun catching up with all my friends and have touched base with alot of people from a long time ago. I am loving being back in London and having everyone so close, although I am missing my friends in Japan. I felt that particularly acutely this week when my friend Hazuki came to visit and reminded me that while I do have friends here, it isn't quite the same yet. (Thankfully e-mail etc.. enables me to keep up with everybody so the end result will be twice as many friends if things go according to plan!!! ;-))Again, that is another thing that will take time. I have also spent WAAAY too much money on new clothes! I am loving getting dressed up to go into the city for work every day though. My office is kind of informal when we don't have meetings but as I have been in jeans/ slobby clothes for the past three years, I am enjoying wearing skirts and heels, safe in the knowledge that I won't have to run after Joey in them! Living at home is still challenging but I am appreciating the support and help my parents are offering me at the moment and I guess it balances out the problems! Having my Mum on hand to help with Joey is truly invaluable and it has given me a degree of freedom I haven't had for a long time. Also, this weekend Joey has had a fever and I haven't had to worry about whether I am going to be able to go to work tomorrow because my Mum has the day off. Fingers crossed that he will be better by tuesday though or I will be a bit stuck.
Posted by Midori at 7/09/2007 05:01:00 am